"Fear is a natural reaction to moving closer to the truth" - Pema Chodron
Thanks Karen.
What a definition of fear! Did you ever think of it that way? I never have. We all experience fear. Early in my career I met a fearless woman. I thought she was fearless at that time. I was early in sobriety when I hit it off with this sultry deep voiced female. We are peas in a pod. We shared our deepest secrets. We were confidents to each other. I couldn't listen to the loss of her son. It was beyond my grasp. I felt a deep sense of loss for her. I knew I could NOT replace him nor would I, but I wanted to be there for her. I tried to be a friend/son to the best of my ability.
We even worked together in my first office. We attended good and bad performances on the Great White Way. We ate breakfast on Sundays. I introduced the children to Ms. B. She always had sound advcie. So when a relationship was ending after 7 years (when it should have ended earlier) I roller bladed to her apartment on the east side to talk. We laughed, cried, smiled, and even rejoiced. She will always hold a special place in my heart. Ms. B has allowed me to get closer to my fears which gets me closer to the truth about what makes me tick. She allowed me to trust others who are in my life today.
So with all my sincerity I wish Ms. B A Happy Birthday.
Can't wait till next year.
MORE
More than the greatest love the world has known
This is the love that I give to you alone
More than the simple words I try to say
I only live to love you more each day.
More than you'll ever know
My arms long to hold you so
My life will be in your keeping
Waking, sleeping, laughing, weeping.
Longer than always is a long, long time
But far beyond forever, you'll be mine
I know I never lived before
And my heart is very sure
No one else could love you more.
More than the greatest love the world has known
This is the love that I give to you alone
More than the simple words I try to say
I only live to love you more each day.
More than you'll ever know
My arms got to hold you so
My life will be in your keeping
Waking, sleeping, laughing, weeping.
Longer than always is a long, long, long time
But far beyond forever, you'll be mine
I know I never lived before
And my heart is very sure
No one else could love you more.
Will continue the Herbal heart Kitchen and Valvular Heart discussion tomorrow and the weekend...
A birthday cake of glass, a plate of food and a happy memory together with Cory, Alyssa and Gregory.
Until tomorrow...
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