Tuesday, August 3, 2010

August 3, 2010 Tuesday A Day of Rest

" Look back and BE grateful, look ahead and BE hopeful, look around and BE helpful." unknown

See it still comes back to gratitude not attitude. I tend to look back with fondness and a smile. That is not to say that the past was all smiles and happiness. There were darker days. Not all of the past-- but a period of 4 years or more. Today, the unhappy days are a mere pulmonic valve of my attitude. Looking ahead and being hopeful is NOT projection. I find that projecting what the future might hold is dangerous. It creates expectations that may or may not be justified. It creates disappointments. It might create a resentment. I look around and I try to be helpful. That is the giver in me. However, think about this --Are you a giver to everyone except yourself ? Do you ever do something for you alone? Do you have a hobby?

Yesterday, with telling patients they have cancer, and having older patients get ill my day wasn't exactly a happy one. And then someone pushed my buttons. I do not tolerate someone yelling or lying to me. So I didn't. I decided to hang up the phone. I then realized this individual is ill. And a very angry individual. I decided to say a quick pray for them and call back. I thought about it and simply wrote the following sentence.

My life doesn't need to be more chaotic because people can't get their shit together.

Done. Finished.

Today I need a day of rest. I didn't want to disappoint you-my followers. It has been a trying week on my mind. I hope you understand
Back to the heart tomorrow
Until tomorrow...

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